Epiphanous Moment

I ached, my body and that place where Soul resides—was it my chest, lungs, stomach, back—they ached as if Soul wandered about wherever it desired—that is the freedom I hear told of the Soul—it seeks flight upon wings that send it into free-flight without boundaries, without judgments, without loss—but forward, with spirit of ease of adventure and will—taking it wherever Souls desire—always with joy and peacefulness.

Yet here I found myself aching in tears, engulfed in grief over losing my husband, my doctor, my spiritual teacher, my soul mate, my lover—all in one man, one person.  I was attempting to grasp a way to go forward—with my own inner compass. 

I’d been attached to my story of Don’s spiritual seeking and path our entire 17 years together—only to discover that one evening in an epiphanous moment,  I, too, embodied God—I, too, was a divine being and as long as I loved myself, respected myself, I would be aligned in my spiritual path and not alone.  The sense of joy engulfed me.  My heart and body-aching dimmed and I began to feel a deep peacefulness. I cried new tears in sheer gratitude of my existence.

Kat

15 November 2015